OK, Friends. Some of you may know. Some of you may not. I haven't really made it a public thing.
I
have been very angry with someone and probably way less than forgiving.
Because of this lack of forgiveness, I have been stymied in my personal
life and probably more so in my professional life.
You
might have heard two years ago that I retired and received the news with
surprise. And had my professional life gone as I had planned, I doubt
that I would be retired from teaching as we speak. And you may have
thought what the heck is he doing with his life?
Those
paragraphs probably have led you to the conclusion (rightly so) that the
person I needed to forgive was my boss. I will not mention a name
because that would not be conducive to my continuing on the forgiveness
journey. I do truly believe that the reason my life was made hellacious
during the last three years of my employment was because my boss
was given an ultimatum to cut a very fat budget. Stripping it of my
salary was a very easy way to do that. I could give you many examples of
things my boss did, unprofessional things, to make me believe that, but
again, I do not intend to trash this person.
It is not the function of this post to vent my anger.
The function of this Note
actually is to let you know that I think this last week I have finally
overcome a two-year funk, a barrier. I am becoming less complacent and
more proactive about what I need to do. So I would appreciate your
positive thoughts and energy. Your prayers. I know I will need them to
keep going forward.
I have been seeking proactively - and
more importantly, actively - employment. I have found a few positions for
which I will apply. I am dusting off my 15 year old résumé. I have gone
to the Missouri Full Employment Commission. In fact, tomorrow I will be
taking a résumé workshop to update it. Currently it looks like I am
looking for a teaching job. I realized that during the last sixteen or so
years I have accrued some skills that are useful to careers other than
teaching and that some of the skills that I used in teaching are
also useful in other endeavors. Lest you think this Note doesn't sound
very forgiving, I must thank that person I need to forgive because it was
because of this person's recommendation that I accrued some of these
skills.
You may be curious about the first position that
my new résumé might help with; it is for a general manager position. If
you'd like to see the job description, you can see it at:
http://business.npconnect.org/jobs/info/arts-entertainment-general-manager-833589
I
will not let not getting an interview for this position be a brick wall
that I slam up against because there are other positions in the
pipeline. Once I get my résumé to my liking, I think the Full Employment
Commission may have some matching services as well. I will continue to hunt on my own.
